This is my very first time writing on here. Today I am just putting a few things down, because of course I started this when I had 10 minutes free. 


On February 16, 2012, my perfect 18 month old daughter Evangeline was diagnosed with Autism. In the last week I have gone through so many emotions and need a place to put my thoughts. 


1st thing which I will elaborate on later. Why did I feel like she was a different person leaving the doctors office. She was exactly the same. I was changed forever. How do I get through each day without treating her different, so far I am having trouble dealing with this. I am all over her, noticing things I have never seen before.


2nd, why do I feel so guilty that this is much more dramatic then when Colin was diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome at 6 years old. I can only think it is because I knew he had Aspergers and needed the label to get him help. I DIDN'T KNOW THIS, nor did I want to hear the words.


That's it for now, have to go to the dentist.