No more complaining

So, I do not want to complain anymore. I don't like it. It isn't the person I want to be. So since I have no followers on this blog and I intend to keep it that way. This is where I will complain. I feel like this, if I keep inside of me, I may lose it, so I have to have an outlet. However, I do not want to be a whiny complaining pain in the butt. So this is where I am doing it.

Yesterday, I waited all day to hear what Ed's doctor had to say... nothing. I told Ed to call at 5:30 since the nurse told him to call back before 6. He called and said it went to voice mail. Well when you call a machine always picks up and you need to press a button. But since my husband would rather sit around and worry rather then finding the problem and working towards fixing it, we wait. I made dinner last night and had it on the table, baby is in the high chair and I have to leave for work. I left for work with the baby in the high chair and the boys feeding themselves because Ed doesn't feel good, because he is so stressed out. I called 5 minutes later to remind him that the boys had to do their math homework. He still didn't make his way to the kitchen. At 8:40 when I have my first break at work, I call home Dylan doesn't have his homework done, he cannot find a ruler. I told him to print a ruler off of google images.  I arrive home at 11:20 pm and go to bed. I wake up this morning to 2 boys with incomplete homework. So I have to get this done before they go to school. This is very stressful I also need to go to their room and pick out all of their clothes for the day. The amount of dirty clothes on the floor and legos and animal figurines is overwhelming. I am now screaming at everyone about how I need help in the house. This is a conversation that happens daily. No one cares. Evangeline is now awake and needs to be fed and I have to use the nuk brush to wake her mouth muscles and find Dylan a new school bag since there was so much smushed food in his yesterday I had to throw it away. The boys are all off to school. At 9 AM I text Ed and tell him to call the doctor, he texts me back, soon. So I call, the nurse says the test results are in but the doctor hasn't looked at them yet. I told her very politely that this has consumed our lives for the past 24 hours and I would appreciate if he could call us as soon as possible.

It has been an hour and I haven't heard a thing.

I need to go get dressed and ready, Evangeline has speech therapy at CHOP today. Then getting the boys home from school, dinner made and homework done all before work. I also need to manage to have my house ready by Friday night since it is my turn to host book club.